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Different Why is it that I can't accept my humanity. That is, I don't like the fact that I am like everybody else. I am controlled by the same emotions and have the same feelings that everyone else had/has. "There is nothing new under the sun." I guess I kind of now understand how Patric must feel with 4 older siblings who have experienced alot. He has to go to extremes to be different than us.... to be unique. I mean... is it that important to be different... well yes... to me it is... being different is the most important thing to me right below being loved. I think it comes from wanting to leave a mark on the world. If you are just the same as everyone around you, than your life is no more important than the next guy (at least that is the feeling/thought that I have). Anyway, I've discovered the feeling of grief. It is weird. quite weird. Check out what wikipedia had to say... this is for patric: "Persons often remark on how someone appears stoic or strong when they are actually in shock. " That is just craziness. I am bond by my humanity and I don't want to accept it. I hate who I am.. that is a human. The physical constraints of my life are depressing and my thoughts and emotions are governed by chemical reactions. The only way to change those is to throw in synthetic chemicals and hope for the best. I don't love or hate right now. 2 comments 2/22/2006 08:18:00 AM   2 Comments: well, not loving or hating is an okay place to stay for now. posted by  Emilia Thee Great on Wed Feb 22, 08:06:00 PM  Many theologians would say that this is linked to the Imago Dei or the image of God placed in us during the creation of man. Man strives for being an individual and to make a impact in the world like his creator. However just like anything else in life this has been corrupted by sin. So this sense of significance is constantly battling with the sin of pride. When does this search for being important and meaningful go to far. Ask yourself do you want to be unique or do you want to be special, I think there is a difference. Most people that answer special lean toward the pride side. Sorry for the deep thoughts today. I still love ya no matter how you are feeling. posted by  Anonymous on Thu Feb 23, 03:35:00 PM  Post a Comment

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